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I'm going to be straight—I'm 32 years old, and in my 32 years of life I've never had a long-term relationship. I'm not some closed-in, no-fun, thirty-two-year-old grandma cat lady though I do have a cat.

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Ideally I would want to know this hypothetical person for a few years before getting married and starting a family. There's a creeping pressure that comes with this — no wonder I had been trying to ignore it. Eight million people live alone in the UK, and new data from the Office for National Statistics shows that working-age adults living on their own are twice as likely to feel lonely as those aged I want to have children and being in lockdown has increased my anxiety about it.

Overnight I feel like I have become very aware of my age. I have started swiping on Tinder like my life depends on it. Skip ! Story from Relationships. Afterwards, always, I would sit in an Uber home and voice note a friend to tell them how it went.

This all feels like a million years ago now. When the UK entered lockdown on 23rd March, the last thing on my mind was how it would affect my love life. I went into my 30s feeling confident. These, I thought, were the years in which I would smash everything. Organised fun gives me anxiety.

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I was just inexplicably sure that it would all work out organically. However — and I really, really hate to use this expression — like all cis women I absolutely knew that my biological clock was ticking faintly in the background. This is the sword of Damocles we are forced to live under if we want children.

Before COVID spread through the world I had focused all of my energies on work, friendships and getting my shit together. I decided that it was time to take saving a deposit to buy a flat seriously and moved back in with my parents to make it happen. While there, I dipped in and out of 32 and still single apps when I felt like it.

I met some brilliant men, some awful men and a couple of men who broke my heart, and put any thoughts about how much time I might have to the back of my mind. And then, when lockdown hit, every time I left the house I came back filled with fear that I would be bringing the virus home to my parents.

I had nightmares about them on ventilators. Meeting friends seemed risky enough, let alone park walks with randoms from Hinge.

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Even worse would be realising that I wanted to kiss them and trying to stop myself. With so much time to think I also started to seriously consider my age for the first time. I was losing a year of searching for someone to build a life with at a really vital time. You only have to glance at the ways dating has been discussed throughout lockdown to see how the current situation has reinforced that pressure.

From the outset, much has been written about the benefits of video dating. Worse still, a narrative has been peddled that single people like me should use lockdown wisely, as the perfect time to cast our nets wide and line up a ton of potential dates for when things 'get back to normal'. I felt that pressure, I bowed to it. I went back on dating apps. I had a couple of long, slightly weird phone calls with a guy who I think, in hindsight, was very drunk.

I also had some lengthy, quite good chats with a couple of other guys, which fizzled out. And then there was another guy who begged me to break the rules and go over to his place. It was traumatic but, sadly, nothing new in the world of dating apps. Thirty-four-year-old Claudia told me: "I want to have children and being in lockdown 32 and still single increased my anxiety about it.

I live alone and I have started swiping on Tinder like my life depends on it, though right now I could only go and meet someone at the park for a date. The double whammy of being single and not surrounded by family has been really hard, and last week I cried so hard to my mum on the phone about it that I ended up having a nosebleed.

The so-called coronavirus 'sex ban' came to an end in the UK last week when Boris Johnson announced that single people living on their own in lockdown were allowed to form 'support bubbles' with another household. While Twitter crowed about how much sex it was going to have, in reality the bubble thing totally depends on your living situation.

There are many single people out there who want to bubble up with their family or friends rather than random strangers on dating apps. And there are many single people, like myself, who are living with others — be they family or housemates — whose health they don't dare risk for the sake of a date while the infection rate is still so high.

Yet life goes on around me. All the weddings that were cancelled this summer are being rebooked for People are starting families: no fewer than seven of my friends are pregnant right now.

Why do some guys stay single?

If your 20s are about being reckless then your 30s are about the realisation that other people are settling down and making commitments. The pressure that accompanies this realisation is overwhelming and claustrophobic. Whether or not you want to try video dating or line up socially distanced dates in the park is a matter of personal preference.

For me, though, taking time out seems to be the only way forward. I asked relationship psychologist Jo Hemmings what she thought. She said that using this time to solidify what you really do want when things go back to normal is smart.

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Three years, to be precise. I am starting to worry that this virus is going to leave an indelible mark on my life in a way that didn't occur to me back in March. It was a fried egg that got me in the end. My dad and I did not have a name for it. Why Did It Take